Hello. I am an adult ballet student that seem to have lost some steam in my pursuit of studying ballet and was hoping for some advice.
Let me just start off with that I had the most wonderful teacher that recently retired.
There are just an endless amount of compliments I can lavish her with but I won't bore you with me reminiscing of good times. She had this one, almost magical quality that made all her students feel like dancers
no matter what the age, level, size. We celebrated every dancers' milestones equally, no matter if it is a double pirouette or simple a grande jete. It was a truly wonderful enviroment to be showered in.
It has been a diificult road trying to find a similar enviroment to wrap myself in. And at first I thought it was just difficulties adjusting to different teaching styles of various instructors, but I came to the conclusion that it 's the attitude
, their faith or lack there of, in what adult dancers can achieve with a little work, that I miss the most.
I think I am fairly realistic of what my capabiliites and limitations are. So I don't have any grand delusions of ever being the lead, or supporting lead, or third string lead
in a recital mind you, but I do feel that I could do more then just to occupy space on a stage as a party guest, with only folk and character steps to do. I would of been happier being dressed up like a half eaten jelly donut and all I did was to boree en pointe across the very back of the stage where no one saw me.
What pretrubed me the most about the casting was that we were catgorized by our age over abilities. All the adults were party guests, no matter what the level of the dancer actually was. Very frustrating.
So from this experince I am a little taken aback and questioning myself if I am not just an old fool continuing to throw my money away. I feel like everything I have worked for have been in vain and dismissed purely based on my age and classification as an "adult dance student", which I am VERY proud to be.
Am I just being too picky? Maybe I should thank my lucky stars that I get to preform as an adult at all? Maybe adult students has no place in a school recital? I don't know. Help!